a nightmare of dreams

i stayed awake
i never wanted to close my eyes
because i don't want this to end
i've had enough of those dreams

but your eyes were closing now
you wanted to get away with this
because you said you needed it to end
you've had enough of these nightmares

and we were torn and tattered
bitter and broken and battered

we had different melodies
our voices never blended
our colors never matched

what a love story
of just mere endings

CHROME

when i feel lonesome, tired and down
when my smiles look better as frowns
when it feels like there's no one to embraceme
when the colors fade and i can't see
i'll think of you and how you light me bright
you are the rainbow that makes me alright

when all things seem so black and cold
when there's nothing to cling on to and hold
when the warmth is gone and i'm left alone
when my voice doesn't seem like my own
i'll search the skies and look for you
you are the rainbow that sustains me through

when everything around seems just fine
when there's that glow that makes me shine
when there's much love it lets me be happy
when nothing else exists but you and me
i'll close my eyes and feel your embrace
you are the rainbow, with whom i shall stay

when i think of how you mean so much
when i long for your sight, smell and touch
when you tell me you love me and i begin to melt
when you kiss me sweet that's so heartfelt
i'll know how much i so love the whole of you
you are mine, you are my rainbow...

Suicide Note 1

Tear my shoulder blades
Cut, slice up my skin
Let my wings hang loose
'Cause this time, I wanna fly

Unshuffle the tangles
Clear up the blood smears
Make it shine, make it white
'Cause this time, I wanna try

Now, I'll flap them fine
Flap them right, flap them wide
Ride the winds, soar up high
'Cause this time, I want the sky

Reach the horizons far
Through each subdued sunset
And when the dark falls
I know it's time to cry

And tomorrow maybe, I'll die

IRIS

after the rain
and the deluge,
the coldness
and numbness,
the lightning
and the thunder,
the dangers
and jeopardies,
the mist, the fog
the blindness and tears,
the melancholies,
the pain and fears,

there's YOU.

and then
i'm fine again.

*IRIS - the personification of the rainbow

Monsoon:

Upwards i look
and i see nothing
but pitch-blackness
no glittering stars
no shining crescent moon
just an overcast sky






Then it began raining again
drop by drop, splatter by splatter
descending thorugh my face,
to my nose, to my lips
and i tasted its
bitterness,
sorrows and
miseries






And i realized
it was my tears
it was my own...

MIRAGE

i kissed you
gently at first
then gaining momentum
intensifying at each moment

your tongue moved through
my palate and it tasted sweet
your breath pulsated fast
i saw the blood rushing through you

you gave in just as i did
we seemed lost in that second
we fought hard of our feelings
we let it linger for a while

then i let my senses explore
past your contours and detours
till i reached the zenith
of your very whole being

there, i marveled at your beauty
and once again, i was in reverie
though, all became but a blur
'till the darkness finally took over

it was black
you were gone

FOR(n)EVER

'i loved you then
as i do now
always and forever.'

it sounded so true
when you said it
it looked so fine
when you wrote it
it could have been
better though
(much better)
when you acted it out

but, of course,
you didn't
and you'll never do

for all that's left
are words

mere words...

words so easily
said and written
words that lose meaning
as time reads it
again and again
words, like dust,
wasted and forgotten

words that never
really existed
words i should have
never believed in

because...
words are never true
only lies
and broken promises are

Tell Me (Now)

stroke my hair again

tell me nothing smoother exists

sing to me once more your songs

tell me i still am the melody

kiss my lips for the last time

tell me you miss it like crazy

hold my hand again that tight

tell me there's no breaking loose

now, wake me up and let my eyes open

tell me how everything had been pointless

give me now a pinch or a slap maybe

tell me that i had only been dreaming

look into my eyes once more

and that you'll never have to look again

tell me how you never ever did love me

tell me what we had was purely nothing

LTD. engagement

your name and how it's spelled
your aura and the strength it held
your soul and how innocent it can be
your mind and how it enthralled me
your magic and how it had me captured
your mystery, how weird and how absurd
your thoughts and how i crave to know more
your emotions, how i wanted to see all
your everything, how they make your whole
all the details and bits down to your core
your face and how perfect it seemed
its features and how they shine in the dim
your eyes and how they stared hard
your nose crafted faultlessly like art
your cheeks, your dimples, your chin
your lips and how they paint a grin
your ears and how you listened
your tongue and the words it had spoken
your hair and its feel, unforgettable
your scent that's so irresistible
your fingers and how gently they touch
your hands and how they reached out
your arms and how they offered me guard
your shoulders that provided me warmth
your skin and how it feels on mine
your reflexes that're so one-of-a-kind
your contours and how nicely they fit
your breath, the pressure and its heat
your heartbeat and how it sounded
your your voice and how it got me astounded
the blood inside your veins that ran crazily
the hormones that almost had me dizzy
your complexities, radioactive as radium
your tricks that put me into delirium
you and how i never had enough of such
you.. just you.. and how i like you much

2 + 1

nakapiit, nakakadena

ang alab pilit kumakawala

pinapaso, inuupos lalo

sinusunog na parang abo

may kirot, may hapdi

bawat kislot at dampi

mahirap, nakakapagod

mabigat ang bawat hatak at hagod

may binubulong, may dinadaing

makahulugan ang bawat tingin

inuubos, kinukunsomo

kabuuan ng diwa't pagkatao

pinupukaw, nag-uumapaw

uhaw ang s'yang nangingibabaw

binabalot, wari'y kinukulong

nawawalang saysay ang dunong

pagkatapos, pagka-apula ng apoy

balik sa dati, huhupa ang panaghoy

di sinasadya, lalong di nagkataon

ito ang triangulong hinabi ng panahon

DOughNuTs

when you flash that cheshire smile
i begin to wander away from time
'cause you set the shivers up my spine
and take the air out of my windpipe
i always want to be closer to you
have your smile and wipe away my blues
touch your dimples, see how deep they are
and marvel how your teeth shine like stars

i. LIKE. you. but i don't love you.

when you let your hand touch my cheeks
i begin to melt swifter than cheese
'cause you get my hormones running quick
and set the whole of me in fiery shrieks
i always want you to fire me up
have you next to me, give me enough
satiate my hunger and quench my thirst
be my partner in this drama unrehearsed

i. DESIRE. you. and i don't love you.

when you stare so hard into my eyes
i begin to daydream and fantasize
'cause you just let me be mesmerized
and from the pain, anaesthesized
i always want you to stare a little longer
and have my digits between your fingers
brush our elbows, stargaze together
and lay my head gently on your shoulder

i. CARE. for. you. yet i don't love you.

just like. only desire. merely care.
not love. never yet. never there.

crazILY

this is crazy, you know;
goodbyes before any hellos,
ending something we never started,
letting go something we never held

it was crazier, though
hating how i now wanted you
thinking, all those once upon a time's
had no happily ever after's in line

realizing my foolishness was craziest
hopelessly hoping for something else
giving you the right to open up and break me
and then after the pain, letting you free

you still have my thanks, you know
for the lesson i've gotten from you
that flings are not to be enjoyed
short-lived fantasies do us no good

thanks for making me crazy
i enjoyed the ride, really

my twenty-six rhymes for you

every single smile is sweeter.
grunts and frowns became lesser.
every day is more joyful.
my nights are more blissful.
my darkness transformed into light.
my feebleness turned to might.
each victory is more gratifying.
every defeat, less disheartening.
every wrong i did was disregarded.
every right one, appreciated.
i cried, i wept, i mourned no longer.
now i laugh and giggle, i’m a lot happier.
pain, sufferings– i learned to fear not.
i learned to be strong; to never give up.
my past didn’t matter any more.
for what really counts now is the future.
i care not what others tell
i only care about you, nothing else.
high mountains became just but hills.
vast oceans became just but streams.
death is no longer a hindrance.
for heaven is but an inch away from us.

we’re no longer two, but one.
we’ll last not forever but beyond.

it’s but love and destiny.
you and me, eternally.

the eaglet's twitter

i am an eagle.
i am free.
i fly high as far as your eyes can ever see.

i am an eagle.
i am akin to power.
i am unsurpassable, unparalleled and unconquerable.

i am an eagle.
i am ever-seeing.
i see even the most minute and most trivial of things.

i am an eagle.
i am with might.
i am unperturbed by heat or rain or any height.

i am an eagle.
i maybe strong but fragile still.
i cry, i sigh, i surrender, i fall down, i fear.

i am an eagle.
no matter what, i will always be.
through forever, come whatever, ‘till eternity.

yes, i am an eagle.
and i have no wings.

i am a Boy Scout.

Post Script

Wop,

How I long I could tell this to you;
Without putting it into a verse or two.
But what could I do? I’m just afraid.
I guess it’s better done than said.

I know you felt it when I looked at you;
When I winked, I smiled, I waved hello.
Or when you talked & I wasn’t listening,
Only for you to catch me staring.

Yes, I know you had your girl.
You were too earnest telling me about her.
Her smiles, her eyes, her voice, everything
How you love her, how you’ll do anything.

You thought I was happy seeing you two.
Thought I was ok when I talked with you.
Thought I was fine when I laughed.
But truth is, deep within, I was not.

Oh yes, there’s something different.
I know you knew; but chose not to mind it.
I was your friend, or so you thought.
I was just like that, but you were wrong.

I’m hurt when I see you with her,
Thinking your hands rightfully belongs there.
I’m broken when you look at her eyes,
Believing she’s yours ‘now and for all time.’

But then, I’m happy to see you glad,
I feel contented to see you safe in her hands,
And I shall dream your dream with you.
Forever, your happiness will be mine, too...

So long. I hope you’re fine.
I love you.

Kim

weirdo

clouding up my thoughts
driving me into confusion
giving me the creeps
pulling me beneath oblivion
touching me deep within
dragging me down beyond
taking every breath away
spinning me around
stopping each heartbeat
blinding up my vision
slowing down my responses
painting my horizons
gushing innocence out
fueling illusions fast
dominating over my senses
hexing skies overcast
propelling me past insanity
inducing unconsciousness
yet here, loving you still and more
'with you' spells 'my only happiness'

POLLeng


pass by me
cheer me in a second
gone by the next tick
leaving me abandoned

a blink of an eye
make my wish come real
then in a flicker
hopelessness then i feel

beautiful but just so tragic
like a shooting star you've been
here now then gone later
wishing i had never seen


Subscribe to: Posts (Atom)